Major Decisions by Bogdan Dragos

A young man wearing gray standing and leaning face forward against a gray wall
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you know you’re depressed when

the window in your room

looks better with the

blinds on

than with a clear view of the outside

“But I’m all right,” he said

to himself

Beyond the thin wall

he heard wheezing breath and grunts

and moans. His roommate

was living the college life, alright.

Kid kept saying it is game that gets

you girls and not money or looks. Sure, but

it’s easy to say that

when your dad just

casually drops the keys to a brand new BMW

when he visits.

Meanwhile he’s been bartending for

the last eight years, since he turned twenty. Maybe

dropping out of college wasn’t

the greatest of ideas. Neither

was breaking up

with the only girl who cared for him. He

knew she cared for him because

she wouldn’t stop nagging him

to go back to college. Because

she wanted a life

with him. Kids even, and all that.

Well, his answer was no

and three years ago

she said no to life. Perhaps for other reasons, he

wouldn’t know now and it was

no longer important. Now it

was his turn to make a choice.

He stood

ambled to the window

opened the blinds

and the window

Watched the city below

Kept watching for the rest of the night

Unblinking

Major decisions were just

not his thing

-BOGDAN DRAGOS

Bogdan Dragos supervises casinos for a gambling company, working twelve-hour shifts locked in a dark office full of TV monitors. There he mostly daydreams and writes poems and stories. He also manages a poetry blog Daydreaming as a profession.

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12 Comments Add yours

  1. Terveen Gill says:

    Bogdan’s writing touches a crucial aspect of life. Decisions. We all make them in the hope that they lead to something bigger and better. But sometimes, uncertainty or a general lack of interest hinders our decision making capabilities. And what happens when the one who truly believes in you is no more. It’s a situation that offers little respite. Unfortunate…
    Congratulations Bogdan!

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    1. Thank you!
      It’s very true that apathy can be a hell in itself. It’s just too easy to overdo it (✖╭╮✖)

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  2. ayiekosami says:

    This is deep, decisions must be made and choices too. What we choose is up to us. I love the ending that he stood and chose to open the windows, so hopeful. Keep writing Bogdan

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    1. Indecisive to the very end, that’s how our hero is (just like so, so many real life people) ┐(´•_•`)┌

      Anyways, many thanks for checking it out! ˙ ͜ʟ˙

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  3. jonicaggiano says:

    Nice piece of writing and I especially love the way you ended this piece. It made me smile. I think many of us have trouble making decisions today because there are so many choices today, life was simpler before. Congratulations on your publication. Hugs, Joni

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    1. Thank you, Joni (✧ᗜ✧)

      You’re right. The more choices are lined before us, the more indecisive we grow. A tormenting paradox indeed (ᗒ ᗨᗕ)

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      1. jonicaggiano says:

        My pleasure, I really enjoy your work as it is unique which I appreciate. As I read your piece I realized that I think the way technology is going it becomes harder and harder to make decisions for me. Congratulations again on another publication. Have a great rest of your week. Hugs 🤗 Joni

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  4. Damn, Bogdan, it’s the Vitamin D deficiency because of all that darkness! I know it’s true because I also have a vitamin D deficiency and often am visited by the Bigger D. I kind of like the darkness, though. You describe it very well.

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    1. ༼ つ ◕_◕ ༽つ Thank you! You’re right, vitamin D deficiency can be a real problem :))

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  5. I kind of want to open the curtains of my room now! But then it would be too bright.

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    1. Sounds like a… major decision(☆ω☆*)

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