honestly
the soul-crushing loneliness can
only be matched by the
soul-crushing company of
shitty people
Is there even a middle
path anymore?
He asked this question to
the hole he punched
in the wall of his bedroom
It was now an empty bedroom
after his lover
left days ago to be with some coworker
or something
The hole he punched in
the wall
told him, “She left because of me.”
“What?” he said. “Cuz of you? Why the
fuck would she leave
because of a hole in the wall? Does
she think I’m fucking
the hole in the wall or what?”
“Oh, you know how it is
with women,” said the hole in the wall. “To
find out that you punch holes through
the wall is like finding out
you have a child from a previous
relationship. They don’t
want a man with that kind of baggage.”
“What the hell? But she actually has
a child from a previous
relationship. It’s her who has a child,
not me!”
“That’s right. And perhaps she thought
that her child and your hole
in the wall won’t
get along very well.”
“Ah, you’re full of shit, hole!”
He drank some more
and then
went into the pantry
and out of spite he took the
stepladder
placed it before the wall and climbed on
it to fuck the
hole he punched in the wall
even used the blood from his scraped
penis to draw a face
around the damned thing
It looked very much like his
ex-lover. He was a painter
after all
and argued that the alcohol and the
hallucinations help with his
art
Perhaps he was right
because some weeks later that wall
showed a picture of heaven
itself
opening a stairway for his limp body
to swing towards as it hung
from the ceiling
The art critics
were astonished. Never had a man represented
heaven in a painting like this one
They would’ve exposed it in
church if it weren’t for
the way the artist chose to
exit the scene
-BOGDAN DRAGOS
Bogdan Dragos supervises casinos for a gambling company, working twelve-hour shifts locked in a dark office full of TV monitors. There he mostly daydreams and writes poems and stories. He also manages a poetry blog Daydreaming as a profession.
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Bogdan takes hallucinations to an entirely new level. A hole in the wall and a depressed artist don’t exactly make a great pair. But then again, intoxication can make the quiet scream a bit louder. I won’t say that this depiction is unbelievable. It’s actually quite the contrary and the ending sadly digs a grave for the insanity and turmoil to rest in.
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Thanks! 🙂
You know, there are plenty of people who punch their walls when they get angry, and then apologize to the other members of the household, and swear it was the last time… Until it happens again. Soon enough they no longer apologize and start blaming others for their explosions of anger. I guess the guy in the story is no different after all, he just saw his creation — the hole in the wall — in another way…
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And, you get, deeper, inside that hole you made for yourself, and you ruminate, on what’s been lost, and how you’d been, wronged by another, and, you sink, deeper, deeper, deeper, into, that state of, depression, and, you will be, in too deep, when you finally realize it, and, you won’t be able to, get back out again.
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That’s right! Beautifully worded ｡^ ‿ ^｡
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You really have a twisted imagination, Bogdan, but I love it!
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(づ｡◕w◕｡)づ Thank you, Dawn!
Like all of us, I write the kind of stories that I like to read :))
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This makes me think a lot, kinda hurting my head a little here. Which anytime we really have to think it is a compliment. I enjoyed the story and you make a very important point, a man or woman who pushes holes in a wall is eventually likely to even hit a person. They are most definitely going to lash out in a violent way. I really have to ponder about the middle path, it certainly getting harder to find one Dragos. I think the ending is a suicide by way of a unending depression. Great story, you know how to makes us think, I love that, but you are going to have to wash your mouth out with soap, do they have soap in heaven? haha Mine use to get washed out at least every week when I was little. Not fun. Big hugs Dragos. Some big lessons in this piece my friend. I loved your boxer emoji – that may be your best one yet!
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\╭☞ \╭☞ You’re right!
People with an anger issue often take it out on walls and random things in the house. It’s only a matter of time until they’ll also attack the people close to them.
But some have more problems than anger issues, and that’s our “hero” from the poem who seems to be hallucinating that a hole in the wall (one that he created by punching) talks to him. The people in his life were fortunately smart enough to know what was to follow if they stayed with him so they left. And in their absence the hallucinations took over completely. In a way, the hole in the wall becomes his muse now and he uses it to channel his anger and other frustrations into art.
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So true Dragos. This was a bit of an educational piece as well. Thanks for the super cool emoji. They are like whip cream on apple pie. Big hugs 🤗
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Good stuff. I love the original feel and turning the common concept into a mirror of the internal storm and madness going on in the mind of the puncher.
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