Religious Ego by Tony Ashenden

A stone statue on a door entrance of a church

Gritty shell

Church within an egg

I watch the moulder of your stone

In envy

Of the subtle grain that clings together


Disdainful of my changing face.

I even see

Your smoke washed splints of mortar

Laughing into faces.

Stilton memories I achieved

And could not

Stop the wooden green from going rot.

Words I spoke

Whilst sitting buttocks down upon the egg

Fragile shell

Withholding my perceptive children

Like I did

I crushed it thinking

It was the Godly given bolster chair

Comfort of my conceit.

Hoopla play your arches

Round my helpless thoughts of demolition

Law enforcing

Dung to give its place to cleansing water.

Spit with glee

They the dying grain to blood my eye

As cold

My thought it turns the hand

Round the chisel’s grasp.

Oh monument

I built you in the lesser times

Subservient was the stone

To my design of

Of the paper and the oh so easy

Pen of righteousness.

Why you hideous now?

And the gargoyle

Split unto the four points

Have not lost an eye or tongue

Whilst the silver

Of my altar laid with blessing

Has passed

And changed between the Bread and Wine

To mint within the careful hand

Of Mammon’s vestal virgins.

I might scratch

Pull faces in the dusty pews

Leave the mark of

My defiance for the Vicar and his white stain.

Might sit again

Upon the egg and in my sleep

Disembowel the precious yoke

From the wasted shell

Would not budge to see

Where its yellow river blended to the brown.

But even now your grey oppresses me

Turns my anger

Into tempered scalpels of destruction.

And my belly trembles

Fear upon the thought of sleeping

Being blind again.


Tony is a seasoned traveller; a computer analyst, seaman, shaman, and a complementary alternative therapist. He is a writer of poetry, fiction, and non-fiction. In his own words – Life is real only then when I am. Please visit his blog Mine Quick Voice of Aquarius to read more of his work.

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5 Comments Add yours

  1. Terveen Gill says:

    Tony’s words evoke sharp and crisp images of turmoil disturbing the heart and mind. Religion is viewed as a path to salvation, but often the dictates are given definitions according to the conveniences of men and women seeking shelter beneath their own perceptions, egos, and rigid interpretations. If God is an entity to be worshipped, then humans must learn to respect, accept, and tolerate one another. I think many are lost in the ups and downs and give spirituality their own shade of color. Thought provoking and powerful writing.
    Congratulations Tony!


    1. Hi Terveen, very perceptive comments -thankyou. The clarity of thought from the Swiss philosopher Jean Gebser comes to mind on reading your words; ‘The condition of today’s world cannot be transformed by technocratic rationality, since both technocracy and rationality are apparently nearing their apex; nor can it be transcended by preaching or admonishing a return to ethics and morality, or in fact, by any form of return to the past.’

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  2. jonicaggiano says:

    Congratulations on your publication. A very intellectual and introspective piece about the irony of life, what life is really worth to others and the conflicting religious hypocrisy. 🤗 Joni

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    1. Thankyou Jonicaggiano for your comments. The Coptic gospel of St Thomas, which incidentally is the most complete and original testament of the early Christian era, makes it abundantly clear the church establishment has not followed Jesus’s teachings that in essence advise a pathway of personal responsibility to awake to the God within, and never states he ‘died’ to forgive Man’s sins!

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      1. jonicaggiano says:

        Thank you I will look to see if I can find the Coptic gospel of St Thomas. I believe we all stand before God and are judge. However, I do believe that because Christ lived as a man, never sinned and suffered horribly, we are saved and shall be in heaven when we die. That doesn’t mean that God is not aware of every sin we commit. I try to be a good person but I believe man is incapable of life without sin. It is up to each of us to try and follow the 10 Commandments as best we can and also to do good acts of kindness. However we all fall short of perfection. I will read the Coptic Gospel of St. Thomas which was found not all that long ago really. Thank you for your information and for writing me back. Blessings to you, Joni 🙏

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