
“One day
I drank 29 cups of
coffee,” she said
“Yeah,” he said, “I’ve
no doubt.
“It was my attempt at
suicide,” she said
“Yeah. I’ve no
doubt.”
“There’s free coffee at
work,
so I took advantage. My
boyfriend died
that way, you know? He
was a truck
driver
so he used coffee and
energy drinks to
help him drive at night.
I don’t know how many
he had that night,
but his heart
exploded.
And I thought, you know,
if I die in the
same way, perhaps I will
be taken to the same
place as him.
It just didn’t work for
me.
I know you think this
is, like, so naive,
but when you’re drowning in
grief like I was… even
the afterlife
starts to make sense.
That’s when you
believe most in fantasy. I
even believed in
God, like all the people who
reach their death
beds.”
“You don’t believe
in God now?” he asked
She offered a swift shrug
in reply. “My boyfriend
didn’t. So if God does
exist, he’s
in hell right now. Therefore,
I’d prefer for
God not to exist.”
“But if God doesn’t
exist
then neither does heaven,”
he said
“I didn’t say anything
about heaven.
Just a place. A place that is
no longer in this
reality. It doesn’t have
to be heaven or hell. Just
not here, you know?”
“Yeah,” he said. “A place
with more…
meaning. Where you’ve
a clear
reason to exist. Unlike
here.”
She nodded
The coffee
was ready
-BOGDAN DRAGOS
Bogdan Dragos supervises casinos for a gambling company, working twelve-hour shifts locked in a dark office full of TV monitors. There he mostly daydreams and writes poems and stories. He also manages a poetry blog Daydreaming as a profession.

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Bogdan’s words seduce the reader to immerse themselves in his imaginary worlds, creating a bubble of reality that not only can be perceived but also felt on a personal level. When does life take that tragic turn where any place but ‘here’ seems better? Grief and desperation can do that and at times the conditioning is permanent. Are we all looking for that better place to be at some or the other point in life? A dimension where much can be forgotten and the pain can be put aside. Coffee is an interesting angle to this sad tale. I’d be ready for that coffee break any time. The stronger the better.
Congratulations Bogdan!
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(◍•ᴗ•◍)/ Thank you!
Indeed, it seems like the survival instinct in us pushes us always to seek better and more, and keeps us away from fulfillment. An organism that is completely satisfied and no longer seeks to expand, to grow is doomed to remain stagnant and in nature standing still is the way to death.
The concept is quite simple in the plant and animal kingdom, but with us humans it’s infinitely more complex and too many of us get lost along the way. So yeah, desiring a way out and using ‘unholy’ means to attain it becomes quite normal in some individuals. In one way or another, we’ve all been there and that’s okay, what’s important is not to stay there.
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I love this. Simple straightforward, so calm and no obvious drama but full of drama. The discussion around heaven is very calm but beautiful.
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( * > ω<) Many thanks for checking it out, Stefanie! Much appreciated 🙂
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Interesting conversation on “heaven and hell” in this piece Bogdan and what place God has in it all! 🤔👍😁👏 I used to believe in both of them very clearly & devoutly. But life experience and human frailties have a tendency of turning that belief on it’s head. I now believe heaven and hell are right here on earth but appreciate the comfort and hope the concept offers a lot of folk.
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(๑´ᗜ`) Thank you!
Indeed, all of our ideas of ‘heaven and hell’ are shaped at first by what others tell us (when we’re children), and then distort as we grow up and experience life on our own. For some it’s better than for others…
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Well said! 👍👏🤔
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Bogdan ,amazing , congrats !
For me, a girl drinking coffee can be both ,
God and the Devil,
good and evil,
but still love Her 🙂
These two gentlemans, G. and D,
must wait !:):):)
And and in the meantime i read Your poem, thanks for that!
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I thank you very much for reading, my friend! 【ツ】
And you’re absolutely right, the way to meet either G or D is to wait for it :)) Meanwhile, we live our lives and create heaven or hell in our own ways.
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Have you heard if there’s a Coffee Club (for lovers of) in heaven? I hope so………..
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There better be one…
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Should I take my own supply? I’m sure they’ll have the hardware. China not plastic cups. ….I do go on
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Hmm… if I’d have to guess, I’d say it’ll be given in rations based on how every one lived their lives… ( ⚆ _ ⚆ )
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A well thought-out answer. I betta start living the good life…….
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I love their conversation, feels so natural. Great piece, Bogdan! 🙂 I’ve thought about the place with more meaning too, especially as a way to escape hard times, until that got old, then I realized (very recently) I’m creating my own paradise and/or disaster here…
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(*゚∀゚)つ Oh indeed, that’s the realization that changes EVERYTHING!
Big thanks for the read, Kirsten!
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Always a pleasure 😊
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Love this and liked the girl a lot.
Gwen.
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Thank you, Gwen! Me too ( ⊙‿⊙)
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Deep
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Thank you! (✧ᗜ✧)
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Your imagination always blows me away my friend. So many people looking for that magic escape, answer, relief or help. Coffee is something I love in the morning, my mom gave it to me at age five, so we could stay awake until my dad went to work. I have been drinking coffee ever since. It is a very interesting choice for suicide. You have such a creative mind Dragos. Very interesting piece and I really love your unique style. Big hugs, Joni
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Thank you, Joni! (´。• ᵕ •。`)
Personally, I drink coffee very rarely. Mostly on night shifts at work. I take it like medicine, just for its effect. But I see it’s such a big part of life for most people, so I thought, “yeah, why not write about it?” :))
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Well it was very cleaver. There is a Netflix show on right now called Roar. It reminded me of some of your writings. Have an amazing week. You are most welcome. 🦋❤️
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Hmm… I’ll have to check it out. Thanks!
三三ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ
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Caffeine did make me shake uncontrollably once. LOL
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Happened to me too :)) when I first discovered it and didn’t know how much is too much
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Cool! Really creative.
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(つ▀_▀)つ Thanks!
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