A Place with More Meaning by Bogdan Dragos

An abstract image with a cup of coffee in the center and the fires of hell on the left side and the cross of Christ on the right side
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“One day

I drank 29 cups of

coffee,” she said

“Yeah,” he said, “I’ve

no doubt.

“It was my attempt at

suicide,” she said

“Yeah. I’ve no

doubt.”

“There’s free coffee at

work,

so I took advantage. My

boyfriend died

that way, you know? He

was a truck

driver

so he used coffee and

energy drinks to

help him drive at night.

I don’t know how many

he had that night,

but his heart

exploded.

And I thought, you know,

if I die in the

same way, perhaps I will

be taken to the same

place as him.

It just didn’t work for

me.

I know you think this

is, like, so naive,

but when you’re drowning in

grief like I was… even

the afterlife

starts to make sense.

That’s when you

believe most in fantasy. I

even believed in

God, like all the people who

reach their death

beds.”

“You don’t believe

in God now?” he asked

She offered a swift shrug

in reply. “My boyfriend

didn’t. So if God does

exist, he’s

in hell right now. Therefore,

I’d prefer for

God not to exist.”

“But if God doesn’t

exist

then neither does heaven,”

he said

“I didn’t say anything

about heaven.

Just a place. A place that is

no longer in this

reality. It doesn’t have

to be heaven or hell. Just

not here, you know?”

“Yeah,” he said. “A place

with more…

meaning. Where you’ve

a clear

reason to exist. Unlike

here.”

She nodded

The coffee

was ready

-BOGDAN DRAGOS

Bogdan Dragos supervises casinos for a gambling company, working twelve-hour shifts locked in a dark office full of TV monitors. There he mostly daydreams and writes poems and stories. He also manages a poetry blog Daydreaming as a profession.

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30 Comments Add yours

  1. Terveen Gill says:

    Bogdan’s words seduce the reader to immerse themselves in his imaginary worlds, creating a bubble of reality that not only can be perceived but also felt on a personal level. When does life take that tragic turn where any place but ‘here’ seems better? Grief and desperation can do that and at times the conditioning is permanent. Are we all looking for that better place to be at some or the other point in life? A dimension where much can be forgotten and the pain can be put aside. Coffee is an interesting angle to this sad tale. I’d be ready for that coffee break any time. The stronger the better.
    Congratulations Bogdan!

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    1. (◍•ᴗ•◍)/ Thank you!

      Indeed, it seems like the survival instinct in us pushes us always to seek better and more, and keeps us away from fulfillment. An organism that is completely satisfied and no longer seeks to expand, to grow is doomed to remain stagnant and in nature standing still is the way to death.
      The concept is quite simple in the plant and animal kingdom, but with us humans it’s infinitely more complex and too many of us get lost along the way. So yeah, desiring a way out and using ‘unholy’ means to attain it becomes quite normal in some individuals. In one way or another, we’ve all been there and that’s okay, what’s important is not to stay there.

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  2. I love this. Simple straightforward, so calm and no obvious drama but full of drama. The discussion around heaven is very calm but beautiful.

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    1. ( * > ω<) Many thanks for checking it out, Stefanie! Much appreciated 🙂

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  3. kenhume31 says:

    Interesting conversation on “heaven and hell” in this piece Bogdan and what place God has in it all! 🤔👍😁👏 I used to believe in both of them very clearly & devoutly. But life experience and human frailties have a tendency of turning that belief on it’s head. I now believe heaven and hell are right here on earth but appreciate the comfort and hope the concept offers a lot of folk.

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    1. (๑´ᗜ`) Thank you!

      Indeed, all of our ideas of ‘heaven and hell’ are shaped at first by what others tell us (when we’re children), and then distort as we grow up and experience life on our own. For some it’s better than for others…

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      1. kenhume31 says:

        Well said! 👍👏🤔

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  4. Midian Poet says:

    Bogdan ,amazing , congrats !
    For me, a girl drinking coffee can be both ,
    God and the Devil,
    good and evil,
    but still love Her 🙂

    These two gentlemans, G. and D,
    must wait !:):):)

    And and in the meantime i read Your poem, thanks for that!

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    1. I thank you very much for reading, my friend! 【ツ】

      And you’re absolutely right, the way to meet either G or D is to wait for it :)) Meanwhile, we live our lives and create heaven or hell in our own ways.

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  5. Have you heard if there’s a Coffee Club (for lovers of) in heaven? I hope so………..

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    1. There better be one…

      ~~旦_(-ω-`。)

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      1. Should I take my own supply? I’m sure they’ll have the hardware. China not plastic cups. ….I do go on

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        1. Hmm… if I’d have to guess, I’d say it’ll be given in rations based on how every one lived their lives… ( ⚆ _ ⚆ )

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        2. A well thought-out answer. I betta start living the good life…….

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  6. Kirsten says:

    I love their conversation, feels so natural. Great piece, Bogdan! 🙂 I’ve thought about the place with more meaning too, especially as a way to escape hard times, until that got old, then I realized (very recently) I’m creating my own paradise and/or disaster here…

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    1. (*゚∀゚)つ Oh indeed, that’s the realization that changes EVERYTHING!

      Big thanks for the read, Kirsten!

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      1. Kirsten says:

        Always a pleasure 😊

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  7. gwengrant says:

    Love this and liked the girl a lot.
    Gwen.

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    1. Thank you, Gwen! Me too ( ⊙‿⊙)

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    1. Thank you! (✧ᗜ✧)

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  8. jonicaggiano says:

    Your imagination always blows me away my friend. So many people looking for that magic escape, answer, relief or help. Coffee is something I love in the morning, my mom gave it to me at age five, so we could stay awake until my dad went to work. I have been drinking coffee ever since. It is a very interesting choice for suicide. You have such a creative mind Dragos. Very interesting piece and I really love your unique style. Big hugs, Joni

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    1. Thank you, Joni! (´。• ᵕ •。`)

      Personally, I drink coffee very rarely. Mostly on night shifts at work. I take it like medicine, just for its effect. But I see it’s such a big part of life for most people, so I thought, “yeah, why not write about it?” :))

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      1. jonicaggiano says:

        Well it was very cleaver. There is a Netflix show on right now called Roar. It reminded me of some of your writings. Have an amazing week. You are most welcome. 🦋❤️

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        1. Hmm… I’ll have to check it out. Thanks!
          三三ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ

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  9. haoyando says:

    Caffeine did make me shake uncontrollably once. LOL

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    1. Happened to me too :)) when I first discovered it and didn’t know how much is too much
      (˵╹▿╹˵)

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  10. Andrew Dabar says:

    Cool! Really creative.

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    1. (つ▀_▀)つ Thanks!

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