
he sat on his knees
before the
bed
by the window
and tapped swiftly
on the screen
of the cheap tablet he’d
bought second hand
It had only a few apps
and the one
he used was
the notes app
It’s hell having to tap
on a screen
to write
but the alternative was
scratching words with
a pen on
paper
and those couldn’t be sent
anywhere these days
He had to get with
the times
At night he kept dreaming
of a device that
would turn one’s thoughts
into written words.
The future will
bring that for sure, but
for now he couldn’t even
afford
a small laptop
It’s hell having the
words in
you, ready to blaze out,
and not being able to
offer them the means
Oh, he
was frustrated, alright
And behind him a
woman’s voice
kept asking ‘when’
“When what?”
he snapped back at it
“Oh, you went deaf
now?” she said.
“I’m tryin’ to focus
on something.”
“Listen to yourself! Focus,
wow. Focus on
what? Playing games
on your tablet
like a child?”
“Goddammit! I told you already,
I’m not
playing games! These things
aren’t only for playing
games! I use
it to write. I’m
writing.
And I need to focus.”
“Writing? Oh, listen to
yourself. Writing, wow.
What the hell
are you writing, Fakespeare?
Nursery rhymes?
How about you get off
that slab for
ten goddamn minutes and
go buy your mother
a six-pack from
the store?
Gosh, I swear, the drinking age
is wasted on you. When
was the last time
you got out with
friends and
enjoyed a party or somethin’?
All you do is
lock yourself in
your dark room with books. Yet
despite all those books
you still don’t know
how to do taxes in this
household.”
“Nobody does, mom. Besides,
there aren’t any
taxes to do, we’re poor
in case you forgot.”
“Shit, we ain’t that
poor. An’ if you hate it
that much why don’t
you get up and
do something about it? Go
marry some girl
from a rich family and stop
being poor. Ah, but wait,
your books didn’t teach
you how to
get bitches, did they? You’re
clueless. I bet you
don’t even know
how to talk
to a girl. You
haven’t seen pussy since
the day you came out, an’ even
then you had your eyes closed.
You haven’t touched a boob
since the days you
sucked milk out of them.
Ah, your father
would be so
ashamed–”
Just then,
in the length of a
heartbeat,
he got up and grabbed
the tablet and
smashed it against
her head
The screen cracked in
spider web patterns
and she dropped on a knee,
holding her head,
looking up at her son
with the horror of one
who fell in the
tiger’s enclosure at the
zoo
Two consecutive
blinks
blurred her vision
with tears
Her throat reached out
for words
but could find only
whimpers
Holding back the urge to
kick her head in,
he whirled on a heel
and stormed out of
the room
and out of the small apartment
building
in the cold streets
without his jacket
The very world around him
held an essence of
pure poverty
and anger at that poverty.
Everybody was
frustrated and ready to
explode, even
the dogs scouting the
dumpsters
For him it
wasn’t the first time
he swore never to
return home, but it was
the first time
he did what he always imagined
himself doing
It finally happened. And now
he didn’t know how
to feel about it
He walked around town
in search for
an answer
When he found himself tired
enough to
need to sit down
he found himself in
front of
the public library
Might as
well get in
-BOGDAN DRAGOS
Bogdan Dragos supervises casinos for a gambling company, working twelve-hour shifts locked in a dark office full of TV monitors. There he mostly daydreams and writes poems and stories. He also manages a poetry blog Daydreaming as a profession.

We would love to read your work. Interested? Please READ our SUBMISSION GUIDELINES.
-MASTICADORESINDIA
Reblogged this on Daydreaming as a profession.
LikeLike
Bogdan tears apart a writer’s self-esteem in this wonderfully written and imaginative piece. It’s a son against his mother and a writer against a non-believer. I believe many writers and readers will be able relate to both. And that smashing reaction to a mother’s insensitive words and callous attitude may be good for fiction, but I’m not sure about the real world. Maybe walking away and sitting at the library may be the safer and less bloodier option. I wonder where things will go from here…
Congratulations Bogdan!
LikeLiked by 1 person
─=≡Σ(((つ•̀ω•́)つ Thanks!
From what most stories of success tell us, it is only after you’ve given up on trying to fit in that real success comes your way.
So… I hope it did come his way in the end :))
LikeLiked by 1 person
My mother luckily was always supportive of me writing. Better than hanging out with shady characters. But I get the part somebody just don’t believe you have it in you of being a writer. There are always people who say dumb things like: “everyone can write a book…”
LikeLiked by 2 people
( ° ͜ʖ͡°) Hahaha, yea, anyone can write a book… until they actually try :))
LikeLiked by 1 person
This really does make one think about one’s cynical voices. It can be hurtful too. Writing is not easy it takes work and imagination too. I really enjoyed how you included other issues that the writer was also getting hammered for as well. I hope this piece makes readers think about the importance of having someone support and appreciate your work. Great piece! Big hugs my writer friend!
LikeLiked by 3 people
Thank you, Joni! (◕‿◕)
You’re right. Having someone, just one soul in your life to believe in you and support your dreams, or simply to not be part of the crowd that looks down on you for the choice you made to dedicate yourself to the writing craft can make all the difference in the world.
( “・ω・゙)
LikeLiked by 1 person
So true my creative friend. So glad we have the support and care for one another. Blessings to you Dragos, I loved your piece. You are most welcome. ❤️
LikeLiked by 1 person
(っ╹◡╹)っ⊂(╹ω╹⊂)
LikeLiked by 1 person
Oh this is so sweet. 🦋
LikeLiked by 1 person
Excellent! What more can I say?
The tears of the mother moved me. The spiderweb crack in the screen of the tablet gave me a pain! I was like, “Noooooo!”
LikeLiked by 2 people
It’s hard being a writer (or anything at all) in a world of nonbelievers…
(╥_╥)
LikeLiked by 1 person
Sure is.
LikeLiked by 1 person