Pieces of Me by Coach Barnes

The black and white image of the cracked face of a young woman with pieces missing
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I’ve spent years giving you pieces of me…trying to fix what was broken in you…on your behalf. 

Trying to heal you from your wounds and damages

Dodging anger in you unleashed on me due to your insecurities. 

Healing your trauma from low self esteem.

While you spent years gaslighting me. 

I’ve spent years giving you pieces of me because I thought that’s what love was. 

But now, I’m shattered and I’m wounded and the pieces of me I really need are long gone, wasted on your selfishness. 

I don’t blame you… 

I blame me. 

Finally realizing you showed me who you were…

Yet I saw what I wanted to see. 

You kept giving me signs and reason to leave every time you gaslighted me. 

Flashbacks of you making me the butt of your jokes.

Flashbacks of you choosing others over me.

Flashbacks of you convincing me I didn’t see what I knew I was meant to see.

I’ve spent years giving you pieces of me…

Pieces that I now need and you can’t even bother to give back. 

Pieces that you should be rushing to my side trying to mend. 

Pieces of open wounds you should have never caused. 

Pieces that you kept without looking back.

Pieces that never belonged to you… 

You gaslight

I’m gaslit

So burnt out

So I quit 

I’ve spent years giving you pieces of me, now I have nothing left to give. 

Message to the reader:

Lesson learned… You can’t fix what you didn’t break. See people for who they are not what you want them to be.

-COACH BARNES

Coach Barnes Leadership Development | Life Coach| Motivational Speaker| Published Author. Coach Barnes has a unique and intimate perceptive on how to process trauma. Her poems are thought provoking and relatable to individuals from all walks of life. To know more about her please visit Gold Mind Thoughts and The Recondition with Coach Barnes.

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5 Comments Add yours

  1. Terveen Gill says:

    Coach Barnes writes her heart and soul into this magnificent piece of writing. How many times have we surrendered ourselves to others, allowing them to chip away at our sanity, obliterate our feelings? The want to be loved, the need to be cherished blinds so many into believing that they are to blame for the atrocities they suffer. Open those eyes and believe what they show you.
    Congratulations Coach Barnes!

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    1. Human failing…….

      Good picture choice Terveen…….

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  2. jonicaggiano says:

    This is so right on the money! Women often can’t see what is going on until they are in too deep. By the way the word of the year was gaslighting. This is a wonderful piece on the way you whittle away all the things you love about yourself. Your self-esteem gone, it is a great example of emotional abuse. By the time you realize the person never loved you to start with, they only loved themselves it is too late. Also this is a great piece because a lot of young people get into situations with their first love and are shattered by that rejection and don’t want anything to do with men for a very long time. Great write and very helpful – young teenagers are fortunate to read this kind of piece because it may just give a 17 year old an a-ha moment and save them from this heartbreak. Have a blessed day and a big congratulations. Joni

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